[melody] Yesterday & Today by Do as Infinity
I have this friend, see.
Let's say her name is Kiwi.
Kiwi and I used to be very close friends. It wasn't even that long ago, like last year. And we had a lot of classes together so we talked and called each other every night and it was really fun. Now this year, things changed. Kiwi rarely talks to me, unless it's about homework and when I say hi, she replies as if she doesn't know me. It's sad, but inevitable. She's quite popular, see, and I guess she doesn't like me as much as her more popular friends or something. I must sound so selfish and stupid but it makes me really sad. :[ Truly.
She only acts nice to me when she gives me a ride and we're like alone in the car and when she literally has no one else to go to. I feel so used.
But it's dumb... when she does talk to me. All these negative thoughts just disappear and it's as if nothing has happened. She's still as funny and interesting as before and we make jokes the same way as before. But it's not like before.
And my mom just ADORES her. She thinks Kiwi's just so hard-working and smart and good at time management and better than me. It's... frustrating, to say the least. My mom worries about me so much even when nothing's wrong. Yes, so cliche. The same can be said for every Asian parent. But I feel inclined to think that my mom goes beyond other Asian mothers. She stays up late when I do even when she wakes up much earlier when I do. Sure it's helpful sometimes but mostly, she's just so FUSSY. I can't imagine what goes through her head. I APPRECIATE IT, I swear, but it's too much!!
And because my mom is obssessed about grades and Kiwi, she insists on asking about and comparing our grades in Euro, which I try so hard at. My mom continually lectures me on how I should study and manage my time when I am obviously making improvements and doing better. I study every night and I work as hard as I can. But NO, she just wants that A so that I can measure up to Kiwi.
I am just... so stressed. =_=
~PRAISE THE PRINCE~